20
Apr
Being really bad
I am rather miffed at myself for being a really bad prick today.
It wasn’t so much of me actively jabbing somebody on their backsides, but more of driving the troll out into the open. And I couldn’t help but feed it. Very bad, very bad.
What happened was that I have a fellow classmate who is really a joy to be around, because he gets so excited easily, and I can have really great conversations with him. The trouble is, he isn’t a geek-oriented type of person, so it ended up that whenever we had lessons in the classroom, he had to ask me what the teacher has already mentioned just barely a few seconds ago.
I’d admit that it is entirely my fault, but the troll started getting the better of me after his 20th question in the same hour. I started to ignore the bumbling young boy (he’s 5 years my junior, through pure virtue of me being over-aged) and concentrated on my own work instead. The poor thing was left with an empty template, and absolutely nothing in his assignment (he had trouble recalling what was taught in the previous lessons, so all the programming stuff stumped him real bad).
At one point in time, it crossed my mind to become a mean green monster and chew him out, but when I saw how nice and helpful my lecturers were, I felt guilty for being such a prick to him. In the end, I promised him that I would get online in the evening, after I had finished my own assignments, to help him complete his own programming homework.
He called me just a few minutes ago, wanting help with a not-so-important piece of software: he didn’t know how to configure uTorrent to maximise its capabilities. Again, for some reason, my annoyance arose, and I found myself snapping instructions to him, while asking him to read the manual for the umpteenth time in an unpleasant tone. It wasn’t outright rage, but I felt that it was a form of abuse that I had to confess to. It was my fault for letting things get to me. I couldn’t imagine if my teachers were to snap at me for every thing that I didn’t know about, or even neglected to read the manual about: I would be one really scarred person.
And just for making it up to him for being a bad, I’ll treat him to lunch on Monday and apologise to him.
If you are reading this, I am really sorry for snapping at you. That was really arrogant of me.
[tags]prick, school, homework, angry, guilty[/tags]
on April 21st, 2007 at 5:01 pm
*hopped over from KC’s blog*
eeks well i do get peeved off at times and later realized the meanie is myself. tho i’m usually the person who pissed the other person off (hello blondeness!)
ryanryan
on April 23rd, 2007 at 11:59 am
Xiao Di, u should be very patient given yr previous job experience
on April 23rd, 2007 at 11:59 am
Xiao Di, u should be very patient given yr previous job experience
Jia You!!! U can do it!!!
on April 24th, 2007 at 9:08 am
Haha, I just dug out something from my huge pile of JC stuff, and found a psychological test I did in class back in 2003, and guess what?
I’m a Dominating person! Let me quickly type out some of what it says about me:
People see you as an aggressive, factual, impatient, systematic person. You respond quickly to a challenge with mobility and flexibility. You are a versatile self-starter who responds rapidly to competition. You try to avoid unnecessary risk or trouble. You are sensitive to nuances and tend to look for hidden meanings. Generally, you need confirmation of the correctness of your action or decision, but in a crucial situation you will tend to go with your intuition. You are logical, critical, and incisive in your approach to attaining goals. You are challenged by problems requiring original and analytical effort.
You may have some difficulties with people — for under pressure you can be cool and blunt. You can be critical and fault finding when your standards are not met. You can become impatient and dissatisfied if you feel your life is becoming routine. Under stress you may seem to waver and appear indecisive when you encounter a conflict between the need to consider the big picture and at the same time attend to details.
Heh, that’s me alright. The devilish perfectionist, in the Dominance side of the DISC circle. More in a new post!